I am the Elite

My father tried to teach me that being competitive was an important virtue and that to be successful in this world I had to be willing to compete. Competition is the life blood of elitism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in competition

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compete with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be separate from others so that I could "distinguish" myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seek in my life what has been best for me, not taking into consideration what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to view myself as an "Elite" in the way that I separated myself from what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to to view the "Elite" as separate from myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to engage in competitive behavior in order to foist myself up as an "Elite", in separation from the whole of humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame the Elite, separating myself from them, thinking I am better than they are when in fact, because of my access to education, food, clothing and my general standard of living, I am elite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to view the "Elite" as responsible for the majority of the world's problems and inequalities instead of realizing that I equally responsible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to live in separation from the Elite

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have the concept, "Elite"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not forgive the so-called Elite of this world

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to indulge in blame for any one particular group when we are all equally responsible for this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have preferred to blame rather than focus on a practical solution to the suffering and inequality in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be separate from the so-called Elite, thereby compounding polarity within this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have the false belief that through exposing the so-called Elite (within separation), that I am making a concrete, practical difference in the world.

Hide and Seek

I continue the process of seeing just how subtle my fears and dishonesties really are and how I let them "hide out" within me. More than just blame, more than denial, it is fear of revealing myself to myself, and to others.

I have the fear that I will not be able to commit myself FULLY to this process. I have fear that I lack the the self trust necessary for the starting point of self honesty and I forgive myself for allowing myself to not fully trust myself. This also makes me ashamed and I forgive myself for allowing myself to feel ashamed that I am not fully self honest.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to not realize that self trust is a SAFE starting point, that self trust is my greatest ally in not being a mind consciousness system, and that self trust is what will most assist me, now.

Self trust collapses for me if I allow my fear to take over...

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear my own decisions.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear my fears.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear my future.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear my mind.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear alienation from myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear not having blame as a excuse and the use of blame as a way to abdicate self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear taking full self responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear complete self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear that my complete self honesty will cause people to not like me

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear people not liking me

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear that self honesty will further separate me from others rather that becoming my expression of equality with all and the full realization of the oneness of everyone and all

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear that my self honesty will make me depressed. This comes from the false belief that the suppression of my dishonesties resulted in a "happier" me. I forgive myself for suppressing my self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear self honesty because I have the false idea that I am incapable of self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear accepting who i am now, in this moment.

dishonesty as me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny my self dishonesty, forgetting that I am programmed to be dishonest and I am allowing myself to participate in this dishonesty and that I am doing the best I can here and now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that this dishonesty is in fact who I am as I am still existing in the mind most of the time and forgetting that I am in a process of dismantling my programming and that I need to be kind to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that I exist in my secret mind of thoughts, feelings and emotions and that I have accepted this secret mind as the "the real me" not realizing that this is not who I really am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify as me, as who I am with the mind rather than stopping my mind, rather than experiencing myself here with me as enough as breath as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to present a picture of myself to the world which is a presentation of dishonesty, based on fear of letting go of my thoughts, feelings and emotions based on mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of who I am, my "identity", my past, my career, my though, feelings and emotions because i erroneously believe they are the real me when the real me is here, always present, undefined, not needing anything, not fearing anything, not hoping for anything.

This comes from a belief that there is something i will lose if I continue in this process. This comes from a belief that I must be nuts and that I have found a group of nuts to mirror my insanity and we're all fucking nuts and we're going to be really sorry some day when we find out out we were fooled again. That is a big fear that I forgive myself for accepting and allowing. Because how many times have I allowed myself to be fooled only to act surprised when the rug gets pulled out from under me which gets back to self-trust and how i forgive myself not trusting myself to know what is right for me but from this perspective how could I have ever trusted myself when I am a programmed system and what makes me think that now, all of the sudden, at this remarkable interval in my life, I have now FINALLY FOUND the ANSWER? I mean, REALLY, how do i even begin to trust myself??? I trust that air will be here for me to breath. that's about all I really trust. so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to loose faith in self trust, thinking that once again I will fuck myself with some kind of fake enlightenment/way out /answer.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be embarrassed by my secret mind, operating in the 'belief' that anyone that would know the real me would see how self serving I am, and I would be ostracized and rejected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself and to fear others as me as it will reveal the secret me and my secret mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a false identity so that I may have license to remain in self dishonesty; to lie and deceive myself as others so that no one as me, can see the deception and truth of my dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resent myself for not being more honest with myself and with others as myself; preferring instead to remain in my bubble where I can just pretend I am "evolving" "progressing" "becoming more aware" instead of me being here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as a "caring" person, as someone who is "positive" and "peaceful" when the truth is I have not allowed myself to realize the extent of my lack of self trust and self dishonesty and self judgment.

SF on the "third eye" construct

The application of forgiveness below is in response to reading the SR document on the forehead point, the "eye of consciousness."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be directed by any outside agency, force or being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in the "third eye."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blindly believe in the significance of the third eye, not realizing it is a portal of enslavement and can be used to manipulate others and set-up enslavement agendas.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself in polarity: as worthy/unworthy within the "third" eye concept.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sacrifice myself to consciousness, to the idea that there was a more profound understanding that I could gain beyond or outside myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my unconditional acceptance in the idea that as one "progressed" the third eye opened and was a portal to greater consciousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be a slave to my desires and beliefs as it relates to the idea of the "third eye" and the attached idea of evolution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in the concept of evolution when teh reality of the world so belied this belief!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have completely disregarded common sense in the face of inequality, disparity, suffering; preferring instead to find personal comfort in the idea of "soul evolution" and the "third eye".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as more "evolved" because of my involvement in various spiritual techniques/tricks specifically designed to engage "the third eye."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been an advocate of practices/meditations/spiritual paths that profess enlightenment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be misguided by the white light construct utilizing the "third eye."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away in exchange for feeling special for the ultimate reward of enlightenment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the "liberation of all sentient beings" was achievable through my devotion to the buddhas.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place these buddhas above me, thereby making myself "less than" them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not have equality and oneness as the most important feature of any "practice" that I engaged in.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe it was necessary to have performed over 100,000 prostrations in order to "purify" myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe it was necessary that I needed to say hundreds of thousands of prayers to the buddhas in order to "purify" my "defilements."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from me; believing the solution to suffering lay outside of me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take "refuge" in anyone or anything outside myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in a bubble of my own spiritual materialism, disregarding the truth of me, in every moment.